I'm Back

6 weeks have come and gone and I am on the road to recovery from torn rotator cuff surgery. I'm progressing well, but it is hard to not do too much when you have two little kids. I have been fortunate that my husband and my mom have been able to take time off from work to help out. The kids have also stepped it up, and have done really well with becoming a little more independent.

That doesn't mean I still don't have Mommy guilt that my kids aren't out and about like we usually are, but that will be getting back to normal!

We did hit the Cleveland Children's Museum last week. It is a cute little place. We've been to the Children's Museum in Pittsburgh, as well as COSI,  Cleveland does not compare. It is 1/4 the size and the exhibits show wear and tear. The kids had fun and really enjoyed the 70 tons of sand they truck in each winter though.

What I didn't enjoy was the kid that was coughing and sneezing all over everyone and his Mom basically sat with her friends ignoring him. Of course, both my kids got sick a couple of days after our outing. I don't know about you, but when my kids are sick and are sneezing and coughing, we stay home! I think it is highly inconsiderate to take a child to a place like a musuem when they are sick. I understand you might have to go to the grocery store or run an errands, but a playdate is not acceptable!

It's also time for us to start thinking about preschool. Really it is time for me to decide if I am going to home school or not. I have one twin that wants to go to school and one that doesn't. Ultimately the decision is mine. So many things to think about!

Feeling Helpless

I've been in an arm immobilizer for 3 weeks and looking at 3 more weeks of it. It is driving me crazy that I can't do the things I used to for my twinadoes. We are doing the best we can and they are helping me out by fixing the velcro on my immoblizer and helping to get their own snacks, but I can't help going to bed at night feeling like I failed them a little. I can't play like I want to, I can't even buckle them in their car seats. I know they are not suffering and are being well taken care of by their Dad and my mom, their Gram, but I still just want to wrap both arms around them and give a big bear hug back.

Patience is not a strong suit when it comes to myself. I can be pretty patient with my kids when I am teaching them something, but I don't cut myself any slack when it comes to things I can't do. I actually want to sweep the floor and wash the windows, and put away the Christmas decoration. Shocking I know.

This will pass and will just be a small portion of my kids life. They may not even remember it.

I tried to do things with one arm pre-surgery, but you don't realize how much you can't do until the arm is actually velcroed to your body and can't be moved at all!

I'll be back to being the Mommy I want to be soon, until then we'll limp along with a little help from our friends!